I am currently sitting at the hairdresser’s with dye on my head and a coffee sitting in front of me. I had booked off Thursday and Friday this week for Eryn’s dance competition but that got changed to Saturday so I have two days off. I really needed these days off work-I have a coworker that I am really struggling with because she is such a pain in the ass to everyone. I needed some distance to put it back in perspective.
Anyways I also have a bunch of things to do/get done on these days off. E has her confirmation Friday night and we have her rehearsal tonight. I need to get my passport pictures done, go and apply for my passport, Harley has an appointment at the vet Friday morning and I need to get something to wear tomorrow night.Then I need to pick up my sister and niece on Saturday morning to drive to the other side of Toronto for her dance competition. Plus I also need to squeeze in much needed schoolwork time as I am way behind on that. I just tired myself out writing it all out!
I am also really struggling with some family issues (mainly my sister and my brother) and I am unsure where to go with all of it. My brother still hasn’t found a job and I my dad, husband and I are still supporting him. I know it is really starting to take it’s toll on my dad and that really worries me. Plus he lies about everything (pathological liar) and yet I feel we can’t turn our backs on him. I struggle with this now on a daily basis.
Then there is my sister who has now started taking oxycontin again and needs help! There is so much going on with this that it needs a whole entry by itself; I love her and am really worried about her.
On top of all that next Wednesday is two years since my mom passed away so suddenly and I miss her just as much. I was the only one with as she was passing away and as I held her in my arms telling her how much we all loved her I promised her I would look out for everyoneaiwhy do I feel like I am failing her with that promise lately?
